I'm not entirely sure what it was that made me decide to do it, but I had just finished watching the first part of a Miniseries, and suddenly I felt like I HAD to at least attempt to write my thoughts down in some form. I cannot be sure that what I wrote makes any sense whatsoever, considering I wrote it at around 1:30 AM, but I hope it can be understood:
I don't know who I am, I do not know where I am going, all I do know is what I feel I must do. My heart tells me that I must do all I can to help those In need, to stand for others, to try an protect them, and to have the courage to stand for things that no one else will. But it's a lot easier said than done, and in the end I don't know where I will end up in the world, or if I will end up accomplishing many of the things I hope to in life. I have already found myself in a challenging situation, and though it can be frustrating and upsetting at times, I can move past it, and I can fight to come through those issues well enough. But once I am on the road, on my journey, then nothing will be certain but the unknown and the unknowable, and it is this in part that I welcome, it is my hope that when I am on this journey, I might find the chance to fullfill what my heart yearns to, and that I might discover whatever else it is I am looking for. Some fundamental truth that will help define who I am I guess, I cannot really be sure what it will be, but again that is part of the reason for taking the risk, and being willing to step outside and LIVE.
