Beyond the Horizon

This is a poem I wrote at the beginning of the Summer this year, and I wanted to put it up someplace it could be stored more reliably than facebook, so here it is.


As I stand here by your side,
and my hand brushes against yours,
as we stand and watch the tide,
I consider all those open doors,
then I realize, I have nothing to hide.

And while the waters ebb and flow,
I look deeply inside your eyes,
and see all I'll ever need to know.
The future is not something we can rationalize,
but it's somewhere we will have to go.

Already, we can hear the call,
to go beyond that horizon,
it waits there, and beckons to us all,
even now as the wind fills the mizen,
 and I know it will carry us beyond, into the fall.

But as to the end,
I know not where we will find ourselves,
for no one knows what is beyond that bend,
we can only see those rocky shelves,
but not what those waiting  waters so readily tend.

To step in places none have been before,
to see that place untravelled,
a home to beautiful to ignore,
free from all that our lives unravelled,
on that distant, open shore.

And here we are,
ready, together, to depart,
filled with hope that none can marr,
burdened not with treasures, or works of art,
together, forever, to that place afar.

There is nothing to fear
for there will be no one to miss us,
or to shed a tear,
but now, together, our longing is furious,
and it's time for us to go, my dear.

-Matthew Carey 2012

Friday the 27th, 1:45 AM

    I'm not entirely sure what it was that made me decide to do it, but I had just finished watching the first part of a Miniseries, and suddenly I felt like I HAD to at least attempt to write my thoughts down in some form. I cannot be sure that what I wrote makes any sense whatsoever, considering I wrote it at around 1:30 AM, but I hope it can be understood:
 

   I don't know who I am, I do not know where I am going, all I do know is what I feel I must do. My heart tells me that I must do all I can to help those In need, to stand for others, to try an protect them, and to have the courage to stand for things that no one else will. But it's a lot easier said than done, and in the end I don't know where I will end up in the world, or if I will end up accomplishing many of the things I hope to in life. I have already found myself in a challenging situation, and though it can be frustrating and upsetting at times, I can move past it, and I can fight to come through those issues well enough. But once I am on the road, on my journey, then nothing will be certain but the unknown and the unknowable, and it is this in part that I welcome, it is my hope that when I am on this journey, I might find the chance to fullfill what my heart yearns to, and that I might discover whatever else it is I am looking for. Some fundamental truth that will help define who I am I guess, I cannot really be sure what it will be, but again that is part of the reason for taking the risk, and being willing to step outside and LIVE.